Letting go and moving on…with a new computer

So, I’ve been toying with the idea of purchasing a netbook to replace my very old, about to die but beloved Sony Vaio laptop for several months now. I’ve popped in to Best Buy a couple of times to check out what’s available (aka what colors does this one come in?). But so far, I haven’t been able to pull the trigger. My old laptop, I convinced myself, was still semi-alive and kicking (albeit VERY slowly), so it seemed silly to purchase another one to replace the ol’ girl –maybe she’d be ok afterall.

…first stage of grief: denial.

However, last night while attempting to download NPR podcasts on my iPod (key word: attempting), I became a little peeved at her inability to successfully perform the simplest task (a little peeved = “I swear I’m going to throw this thing out the window!”).

…second stage of grief: anger

We left her to manage the download while the boyfriend and I went for a walk. Upon return, I felt guilty at how I treated her and asked my boyfriend if there was ANYTHING at all we could do to help her get back to fighting form.

…third stage of grief: bargaining

His answer: an unwavering, no. Over the next 12 hours, my entire hard drive flashed before my eyes: thousands of songs; pictures from Mexico trips, college graduation, family gatherings — all gone in an instant if she unexpectedly passes.

…fourth stage of grief: depression

But this morning, after much uncertainty, I finally decided that it would be best for both of us if I replace her, so she can die in peace, without the burden of holding on to my documents, music and photos.

…fifth stage of grief: acceptance

So, this afternoon, amid feelings of loss and sadness for the spent life of my Vaio, I will be purchasing a shiny new netbook. Though I’m excited at the prospect, I know that no computer will ever replace what I had with my college laptop. She was there with my through it all, and I will miss her.

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February 18, 2010. Tags: , , , . Life-in General. 2 comments.